She's Gone For A Moment

Here we go again , It was just another typical Monday , nothing out of ordinary as school was closed since two days ago , Happy Aidil-Adha to all muslim yeah . I think this is going to be the last entry as I gonna sit for my examination in another five more days to go . Dupdapdupdap like there is an epic huge of marching band playing drums in my heart ; that's how my I feel everytime I wake up after well-long asleep in every morning and it'll go on the whole day and would continue the next morning . It is totally a horrible nightmare . I hope I can do well , just for the sake of my parents , only for them , their good deeds and kindness need to be paid . That is all I ever think about at this particular time . Gonna prepare for my worst nightmare ever .

Apart from that , I miss lots of things , old people and abounding of memories . We grew apart , I dont know what happened . Maybe distance had a lot to do with this . I do hope someday , they would know that I still think about them . You could offer me a lifetime friendship with Blake Lively or Leighton Meester and I still pick them in a heartbeat . That's just how much of a treasure they are to me . I blame myself for being such as sentimental freak . No one appreciates something for long now , do they ? Anyhow , good luck in your SPM ;)

On a brighter note .

There is .

Only one thing left .

I wish I was strong enough . I need him in my life in spite of all the fights and misunderstanding . I cant explained how painful it is having the one that we love by not seeing each other . I cant help my tears from falling down . It happened finally . I have decided to take this risk , to have him in every steps I move and in next eighty years or at least until the day I close my eyes . I miss him way too much . The only reason of my genuine smile .

No , I don't like this . May all the torture rot in hell .