You're My Heart's Desire

"You ever wonder what it all really mean

You ever wonder if you'll find your dreams"

Have you guys ever lost the love of your life ? I guess
you guys have officially met my best friend . Yeah , she's nut and I love her so . Her life is full of happiness since October 2010 . And this year have a great beginning in her life and there will always be rainbows around her . From a weak girl , she learn how to live and be able enough to through all her obstacles in life by the presence of the beloved and her close friend .
Everything changed . Since last week , she remains silent . She didnt tell anything . She didnt go to school . She didnt eat anything at all . In addition , she threw away all the medicine . And she keep herself in the room . SHE'S DEAD . She gave up . I guess , she just need time for her mind to be free . I called her but she refused to not answering . She keeps telling the negative thoughts of her . Even I am become a little pissed off of her mindless thoughts but still I never stop motivated her .

Yestreday night , I was at around her house . Under the moonligh

t , at the silent street , wind blowing up lightly but the weather wasnt too cold as I expect it to be , I am waiting for her at her cousin's house and watch she walked into me a few minutes later . Staring at her eyes that telling me like the tears is all that accompany her . I've noticed that the smile on her face has gone . I feel like crying but I managed not to cry . I cant go weak infront of the person that is ho

lding on to me . Its all me that she have . So I make a few step towards her and hug her . She leaned her head on my shoulder and start to cry . I try to raised her hand and put it at my back , I want she hug me too , I want she feel that she's not alone . But , she refused . I strenghten my hug and forced she to hug me . She fails , she keeps crying . How do you feel when a person that you're closer to more than any friend that you got become this wayy . Tears too running out my face . I cant stand seeing her become helpless like this . For the first time in my life , she cried in my arm . Ohh yeay , so she went to school today as usual . The emptiness of the table beside me had filled back again by the presence of her . I thank God uncountablely a

s the problem has been solved .

You cannot always follow your heart .

Seriously I cant stand seeing you become this weak like you never before . It make me feel empty . . Your happiness is mine , your sadness is mine too . I really hope I could make it easy for you , but I cant , It make me feel how suck I am that I cant be a good friend to help you handle your situation .So please , after this , dont ever place yourself in hows and whys situation .

You're my perfect match . I need you . I value you . You are precious . You are the reason I keep moving on in my life . You are my strength . You bring joy to my life . I blessed to have you in my life . Dont ever think that you're alone cause I'll always be beside you , its just you all I have since I moved here , no one else .