Life Doesnt Stop For Anyone

Dear followers and readers ,
Its 6.11 am and as usual , Im still wide awake . Whatcha saaay , Im an owl . Thankgod , I dont have eyebags , yet . I cant seem to quite understand why my mind is wondering elsewhere .
I've got some issues to talk about . This issues had always keep fighting in my mind . Its has been a long time that I wan to post about this . I have a little confession to make , but Im afraid if I might hurt a numerous amount of people .
But hey , Im not perfect either . Im just about to state my personal opinion of religion and the things that relates with your own problems . Seriously , this is a sensitive issues . Doubt . I guess I post this entry , the ppl will hate it . but this is my space and Im entitled to say or write down my opinion , right ? I have done a numerous amount of things that against my religion . Swearing is a sin , not covering my head , and so wearing shorts and dress , too socializing and whatsoever .
Well , Im just enjoying being a teenager . I mean , come on , being a teenager is just once in our life . Why do we should wasting our time with doing things that doesnt make us happy . I dont want someday , when I was 40 and start to realize that my teenage life was a fucking boring . I dont know why we enjoyed not to follow the rules in Islam . Things happen for a reasons , and I do believe in Allah . Im not going to question that .
Its seems like everyone keep complaining on their own problem . Asking why this happened , that happened and blaming fate or someone else . Yes , sure , I do keeps complaining abot my life but I didnt asking like seriously why this is my fate , why this happened to me .
For the same religion with me , can you all just stop blaming each other and all the things that has happened . Its all Allah 's job . What can we do ? Nothing ! All we ever should do is praying . Ask him for the right path and ask him for the strengthness in order to through your problem ; love problem , money and whatsoever . And you too have to make it out by yourself .
Im not saying like Im the perfect one . Im lost , so am I . I dont know wherelse I should rely on . I dont feel like God is beside me . And I jusst dont know what to do . All I ever wanted is someone to guide me to find the right path . Im saying all of this as a sister in Islam . Ohhgodd, I feel jerk talking about this . Im sinner . And I dont feel like I deserve to post this entry .
Maybe you're going to think of me as someone who just being a fake or blablabla . I hate it when people start bitching about others when it comes to religion . Dude , in reality ; you're no different .