My Only Bitter Sweet Addiction

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now."

"Someone taught me that I have to move on like the rest of the world and to stop living on a bunch of yesterdays"

Love? So many to talk about this one not-so-simple yet common topic. Everyone has their own perception about love, and as for me , i would have to say it's some sort of addictive bitter pleasure. It gives you both pain and delight , a whole mixed up feeling you can ever imagine.

Although as painful as it is , you'll still be needing it day by day. You'll always need that one person to love and that one person that could love you back. You know somehow someday you would get hurt again , but we would always push away all that and go for it. And just give it another shot. In the end , the same thing happens. Either one of us would get hurt and stray away from the crowd for quite some time. It even causes suicide , which is alternately idiotic but quite rare. I barely hear those kind of drama , but i bet there is. Humans these days just don't know the exact place to store the brain , sad , i know.

Why do am I keep on wishing for the impossible things in life? I wish to go somewhere far, an island, with no one I know around, start over, no family, no friends.

My heart keep saying that "Be wise , be ready , be strong. That's all in the ABC of growing up. Never fear of being inlove , never fear of never being loved; put aside your looks or whatever that is humans search for these days, you will eventually meet that one person who would just love you although how loud you burp in public or how bad you look when you wake up. There will always be someone who would always look at you and get butterflies in the tummy. Don't give up just because one silly crush turned you down , it's too soon to stop. Life is about moving on , keep on walking cause we need to find out the ending of this repulsive chaotic life. Love is indeed a strong feeling that would make you bleed or just give you the satisfaction you can ever ask for. Love is my very own addictive bitter pleasure."

I still learn how to hold on of this advices.
I wish to be happy.
I wish to be cruel.
I wish to survive better.
I wish to be more stronger.
I wish to forget everything about what we had.
I wish one of us will die s0on so that Im not sad that Im loosing you in that way.

I should be studying, I did not study AT ALL this week (other than in school) which is why Im worried, you know, the feeling of not being able to answer a certain question? Yeah. I should start panicking, no? Exam bile ehh? This month ? huuu.

HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MUSLIM PPL :))