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So yeah when I was in Form 5 , Im really sure that Im into art . So then , I decided to take Graphic Design and Multimedia course . Seeing those combination of beautiful colors , pictures , the structure and unique hand writing styles or even the fabric illustration ; I wanna learn more about that . I even planning to buy a tablet so that I can install those drawing applications and buy a new laptop for installing Photoshop and etc . So this is what Im gonna to learn (private Islamic collage chosen by dad) • Discrete Mathematics .Introduction to IT . Introduction to Multimedia.Internet and the World Wide Web. Fiqh Islami l & ll. Preparatory English l & ll. Co-curriculum l & ll. National Language. Introductory Math. Creative Multimedia Drawing. Introduction to Graphic Design. Multimedia Design. Computer Network. Introduction to Programming. Arabic Language l & ll. Aqidah and Akhlak Islamiyyah. Introduction to Animation. Database System. Object Oriented Programming. Arabic Language lll & lV / Mandarin l & ll /Japanese l & l. Mainstream English. Multimedia Authoring . Scripting in Multimedia. Audio and Video in Multimedia.Software Development• 3D Animation• Islamic Studies• Philosophy of Science and Muslim Technorat• Fiqh Al-Muamalah• Occupational English• Malaysian Studies• Internet & The World Wide Web• Multimedia Project• Entrepreneurship in IT• E-Commerce• Industrial Training See , sounds interesting , arent they ? It's just more into Islamic subjects , of course la , since dh namanya kolej Islam . Well , I think , Insyaallah there will be no problem . Furthermore , I've been in Islamic school before , learning Arabic and Mandarin , well not quite easy act . But well , we'are all know we have to struggle much much more .This is soooooo capturing my attention . Ahhhh ~ How I wishhh ! But the problem is ... Ibu and Abah are suggesting English Study or TESL for myself . Dia org mmg lah suggest cmni according to my results without even know my passion . I dont know , this is so confusing , Im not that good and Im even using dictionaries most of the time . And Im not into English though . Im writing in Eng cause it had been my culture when I live in KL , surrounding with foreigner in old school . Well by the way , Here it is ; TESL • Introduction to the History of English Language• The Teaching of Writing Skill• The Teaching of Reading Skills• The Teaching of Grammar• The Teaching of Listening and Speaking Skills• TESL Methodology• Discourse and Pragmatics• Varieties of English• Linguistics• Research Methodology• Literature• Dinamika Guru• Insan Guru & Keguruan• GERKO I (Perancangan dan Pengurusan GERKO)• Psikologi Perkembangan• GERKO II (Kelab dan Persatuan)• Pengajaran & Pembelajaran• Asas Pendidikan & Keguruan Islam• Sekolah & Pelaksanaan Kurikulum• Bimbingan & Kaunseling• Teknologi Pendidikan I• Pengujian & Penilaian Dalam Pendidikan• Teknologi Pendidikan II• GERKO III (Sukan)• Praktikum• Aplikasi Komputer• Bahasa Arab• English Language Proficiency• Al-lughah al-Arabiyyah English Study ; • Bahasa Kebangsaan A• Pengajian Malaysia• Introduction To IT• Aqidah Dan Akhlaq• Introduction To The History Of The English Language• Linguistics I• Basic English Proficiency• Pengajian Islam• Bahasa Arab I• Fiqh Islami I• Structure Of English• Linguistics II• Intermediate English Proficiency• Fiqh Islami II• Bahasa Arab II• Skills For Muet• Advanced English Proficiency• Thinking And Reading Skills• Principles Of Translation I• Technical And Professional Writing• Language And Culture• Varieties Of English• Principles Of Translation II• English Literature II• Internet And World Wide Web• Principles Of Academic Writing And Research• Translation Project• English Literature II• Introduction To Islamic Literature• Term Paper•Occupational English• Public Speaking• Latihan Industri Plus , I still didnt get it the differentiation between TESL and English Study . And their career prospects ? I dont know much about this . Being a teacher ? Im not sure . Please , I need your help , someone out there ? Please .